Loser

I lost Trey.
I lost faith.
I lost hope.
I lost myself.
I lost my full heart.
I lost a future with my son.
I lost my husband's namesake.
I lost my new mother status.
I lost my maternity leave.
I lost milestones.
I lost ballgames.
I lost his first day of school.
I lost his prom.
I lost John teaching him how to shave.
I lost my self esteem.
I lost my pride.
I lost my trust in myself.
I lost my first born.
I lost my dignity.
I lost my dream family.
I lost my innocence.
I lost my belief in anything holy.
I lost my tears.
I lost raising him.
I lost his first love.
I lost grandchildren.
I lost John Thomas IV.
I lost rocket building lessons.
I lost "the talk".
I lost the purpose of his nursery.
I lost a potential daughter-in-law.
I lost the joy of his birth.
I lost so much more.

I lost my son.