I started writing this on Monday after a hard day during which my mind swam around the fears and anxieties that plague this pregnancy. When I first started, I found myself writing the same words and feelings I have written about time and time again, and it was in no way touching the panic and anxiety I felt that day. There were so many thoughts and fears running through my head that day that I had to fight back tears and catch my breath most of the day. Needless to say, it was hard for me to focus long enough to express what I was going through so after sitting in front of the computer for over an hour, typing and retyping what I had written, trying to convey the heaviness of the day, I set it aside. In the three days since, I have had time to calm down, focus my thinking, and exhale, yet the words to describe the tornado of emotions I was feeling three days prior still escape me. I guess the only way I can describe it is all of the emotions, fears, and anxieties I have written about bombarded me at once, with great speed and a larger force than I could have imagined. Usually these emotions come in waves one or two at a time, hardly the tidal wave I experienced on Monday. I am thankful that it has passed and I wouldn't be surprised if I see the tidal wave again. So instead of rehashing my feelings, I'll let someone else's words speak for me and let their music soothe my restless soul.