Wednesday, December 22, 2010

It's all in the genes

I survived yet another appointment at the OBGYN on Monday.  Nothing much really, just three gallons of blood being removed for testing and other unmentionable women tests.  It is still too early to hear the heartbeat although we can see it on ultrasound, there was no ultrasound performed at my last appointment,  so there has been a pit in my stomach ever since.  We will have to wait until tomorrow to nervously anticipate our baby's heartbeat on ultrasound.   Tomorrow's appointment is a DNA screening, not the normal type that pregnant women get at their normal OBGYN.  No, no, no, we get the special treatment.  Our DNA tests will take place in the neonatal unit at the hospital and while the normal test does an overall scan, our scan will test for anything and everything they can test for.  By taking blood and taking measurements via ultrasound, I would not put it past the doctor's to find out what our little offspring's SAT scores will be or at least put our minds at ease that our child is healthy and thriving.  We're not worried about CHARGE reoccurring, the chances of that are too minuscule.  Ok, it is in the back of our minds, we are 1 for 1 on having a child with a genetic disorder.  We don't know anything else but bad news.  Christmas will be a joyous time for us on some levels, but in the back of our minds we will be wondering what we will find out about our unborn child after the holidays.  The truth is, these types of tests are scary no matter what the circumstances, but especially when you've already lived through it once and know what's coming if the news is not so good.  I keep thinking about how tomorrow's appointment falls on the 23rd of the month, the same day of the month that Trey was born.  Our first ultrasound was on the 23rd of November.  So far, the 23rd has brought us good news during this pregnancy, I am hoping the luck continues.  I just can't wrap my head around something so tragic happening to us again, it's all too familiar to my heart. I want to deny that anything that terrible could ever happen to us again.  And the roller coaster continues...

2 comments:

  1. Will hold you in my thoughts...sending positive vibes that the tests will come back with good results.

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  2. I will keep you all in my prayers! Congrats on the baby news. It's a true blessing.

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